Working since the age of 16 years old..this is where I am right now..thank u Allah..

I did not know if there's anybody out there who did share the same experience as mine..

I was born in a very simple family...
there are only four of us in our family..ayah, mak, me and my brother who is already married by now..

We had a very sedentary lifestyle...
no vacation during holiday, no birthday celebration (I used to get sad when I was a child when I saw my friends were celebrating their birthday, but now it's not a big deal)
all that my parent provide us is education and my mom always said that the best thing they could give us is education..

So I've become a very hardworking students during my school days..
My aim is to get the best results that I could achieve...
Cause I want a better life..
The life I've been dreaming about...able to get all the things I want on my own..
I study so hard and managed to pass all the big exams in my life with flying colours..
My UPSR is 4A's (at that time, year 1996), my PMR is 8A's and managed to get through SPM with 9A's
I did get a scholarship after SPM but I rejected the offer due to a few issue arises..

Since money is one of major problem in my family, I tried as much as I could so that I don't have to have money problems when I'm adult..
I worked since the age of 16..all day long from 9 am to 6 pm and that moment of time I was only getting paid RM350 permonth..but I managed to to keep some of the money for my educational purpose..
That was the best experience ever in my life..
Despite learning about working at a very young age (I do have a fewschool  friends who had same experience as me), I also learned on how to communicate with people during my younger working days..
That experience changes me from timid, shy young girl to a better person..
I made friends with older people (still in contact until now)
but on the same time I keep on studying..with the remembrance in my mind that I want to be better...

Now, I've achieved a very stable life..
More rezeki is coming in..it might not be as much compared with others who had bigger salary, but most importantly I feel blessed with all the sustenance Allah has given me..
and I know the rezeki is more blessed when shared with others..
cause I believe that all that we had will be more meaningfull when it is shared..
especially when we use some part of it to help others who is less fortunate..

I believe the rezeki that Allah give will be more than enough for everyone when it is shared..
The sharing moment makes it more meaningfull...
We GIVE to RECEIVE...
The more we GIVE, the MORE that we'll be receive..
and all the good and barakah rezeki coming from Allah is to be shared among us...

How I was an idiot during all those few years before..
very stingy...feeling that all the rezeki is all mine....
and thank u Allah for enlighten my heart and make me realise how good and gratefull it feels when all the rezeki is shared among us...

SPREAD THE LOVE, AND THE LOVE WILL BE COMING BACK TO U...

Alhamdulillah..Thank U Allah, Thank U Allah, Thank U Allah...

Thank U so much Allah for filling my day with love today...
I felt so gratitude for what you've been given to me through this day and through my entire life..
Thank u so much Allah..
looking back for what I've went through I never thought one day I could be as bless as now Ya Allah..

Thanks for all those happy moments with my family
and I believe there are more to come in my life...

Thank u, thank u, thank u so much Allah..

and today I do not know why,
but I could feel just like love is in the air..
it seems like my love, my soulmate is looking for me
feels like he's yearning for me (but I don't know who is he)
and I could feel it, (hahahahaha)
deeply inside my heart (semua orang pernah rasa perasaan rindu kan? saya rasa dirindui seseorang, hahahaha..seriously, i know this might sound crazy...but it's true I feel it)
I know this might sound ridiculous to anybody who read this..
But it's true...
I could feel it..
and it is very strong..
until I could not deny this feeling...
and I couldn't help myself thinking
this is very weird
Why I feel this way Ya Allah?
Give me the answer..
I believe that only You Ya Allah have the answer
as You are the guardian of human's heart..

and again Thank U so much Ya Allah...

Let's Use Our Positive Minds.......

After reading the book The Secrets, this idea came across my head...

I dreamed of winning a Grand Livina...

so, I use my mind and imagine I'll win a Nissan Grand Livina..
and being gratefull for winning that..

Thank You, Thank You, Thank You for Allah the winning...


let's see if this is going to work...

Luahan Hatiku......

Ya Allah Tuhan Yang Maha Pengampun Lagi Maha Penyayang
Aku bermohon kepadaMu Ya Allah
Kau berikanlah aku petunjuk jodoh dan jalan hidup yang terbaik untuk diriku
Sesungguhnya aku berserah, aku memohon, aku meminta hanya padaMu
Hanya Engkau Ya Allah yang tahu apa yang terbaik bagi setiap hamba-hambaMu

Kau permudahkanlah jalan hidupku
Kau permudahkanlah jodohku
Temukanlah aku dengan cinta sejati jodoh peneman hidup yang terbaik untukku
Bukakanlah pintu hatiku ini seluas-luasnya takkala aku bertemu dengannya
Percepatkanlah jodohku
Rahmatilah kami
Dan kekalkanlah hubungan kami hingga ke Jannah Ya Allah walau apa jua berlaku

Jadikanlah kami saling mengasihi
Jadikanlah kami saling menyokong
Jadikanlah kami saling mencintai
Jadikanlah kami saling menghormati
Jadikanlah kami saling menguatkan
Jadikanlah kami saling mengingati
Jadikanlah kami saling menginsafi
Jadikanlah kami saling menghiburkan
Segala-galanya atas kehendak dan redhaMu Ya Allah
Kerana kami sama-sama bercinta untuk mendapat redhaMu Ya Allah

Lapangkan dan tenangkanlah hatiku ini takkala aku bertemu jodohku Ya Allah
Agar aku yakin dan tahu dialah jodohku

Aku ingin menikmati hidup bahagia berkeluarga
Bercinta seumur hidup hingga ke syurga
Mempunyai anak-anak yang pintar dan cerdas
Soleh dan solehah
Bahagia bercinta demi syurgamu Ya Allah

Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.....

please Ya Allah, give me a highly tolerate person...

Dwelling On The Past...

Suddenly my mind flying,
Thinking on a past experience...
I don't know lately why i've been thinking about this...
The Past Is Experience, Learn From It...

LISA NICHLOS
It's working as much as you're thinking. Any time your thoughts are flowing, the law of attraction is working.
When you're thinking about the past, the law of attraction's working. 
When you're thinking about the present or future, the law of attraction is working.
It's ongoing process.
You don't press pause, you don't press stop.
It is forever in action, as your thoughts are...........

Misi Kumpul Duit Untuk My Future Plan...

There are a few mission I need to accomplish in my life...

The main one now is to get marry and have adorable, lovable, cute children..
I wish I will get marry next year.....

Before this, my main target is to stabilise my financial...
I've been thinking about this since the age of 18..
I've crossed a lot of things to do in my list already..
Now my biggest wish i to get marry and have kids...

Even though I still haven't found my mr right.......
But i'm sure it's coming towards me now...and it's coming nearer, nearer and nearer
An eternal love...
something worth......

"Fill yourself with love, and love all around will come to you"
 "Imagine yourself live with abundance, and it will comes to you"

Why Do You Want To Get Married?

I don't know the exact reason why should I get marry cause I don't know how to fall in love again..

The only reason left is

If Allah sends someone to me, the only reason I married him is because of Allah
I will treat him nice because of Allah
I will try to survive and enjoy the marriage because of Allah
I will try to accept and give because only because of Allah
That's the only reason I can think of right now...
Because you don't meet a person without a reason..
You meet them because they are meant to cross your path...

My parent are asking me to get marry, but I didn't know who and where is the right person..
I don't know how will I get marry, but I believe Allah will solve it for me..

After a few days of thinking, now I know and understand why I want to get marry..
it's not because you scared of people's perception
it's not because you scared you'll be alone when you are old..
it's not because you want someone to take care and responsible about you..
It's just because I want to fill myself and my life with LOVE.......LOVE.....and LOVE...
love that will bring us to jannah..
In shaa Allah